Life after trials – it is called “the life of hell”. Results of trials are coming back. SPM is approaching. Nothing I can do now. I seem to be lost. I told myself to study but nothing is done. My trial results, for some people, they can be very good results but as for me, I’m feeling terrible for what I’ve got.
Malay – 65% B3
English – 76% A1
Chinese – 66% B3
Mathematics – 94% A1
History –50% C6
Moral – 65% B3
English for science and technology – 80% A1
Biology – 72% A2
Physics – 73% A2
Chemistry – 75% A1
Additional Mathematics – 87% A1
Principle of Accounts – 95% A1 *exam in tuition
A’s are very important for me. Although I’ve not put in a lot of effort for getting an A, but at least I hope to get a very strong A1 for my strongest subjects, that are – Additional Mathematics and Mathematics. Yet, I did not do as well as I expected. Many people thought I am “smart” person. No, people! I’m telling you I’m not! I’m not smart at all. I don’t have a good brain. My brain never a brain-box, which can store information I learnt everyday. I’m no longer the smart girl I used to be when I was young. Stop saying I’m a smart person and I don’t need to work for something. No! There’s no such thing! o.o
I felt very depressed especially when the trial results were out. I can see many people improved so much. They are those who never pass for certain subjects since last year but they got a very strong A1 during this trial. I felt so sad when most of my subjects are actually going down the hill. Mom and dad are so disappointed with my results. I can see that although they didn’t say it out. They spent so much money to send me to tuition expecting for very good results from me but I did not. I’ve tried to study since July for this trial but somehow I didn’t manage to do so. I knew my result going to be bad but not to be that bad. I’m sorry mom, dad. I’m sorry for the results but I really don’t know what had happened to me. Stop instructing me to study and let my brain figure things out by myself or I may get a nervous breakdown at the very last minute. Although time is very limited, just give me a little more time.
I’m now feeling very lost and depressed. People may see myself laughing and smiling all the time, but deep in my heart, I don’t feel happy and satisfied with my life. I felt something is missing but I don’t know what is that. This is causing me unable to concentrate to study. I really hope I can start studying but this missing thing is distracting me! No! That “missing thing” must be off from my mind! OMG! Help! It’s very crucial time for me to prepare for SPM! I can’t be distracted! =(
I need someone to talk to. I need someone who willing to be by side for me to spit everything out. But who is that person? When I want to tell all these to someone who are so much smarter than I am, they will not give me a very good advice. I know these people are usually selfish. Sorry to say but this is true when they don’t want you to be better than them. When I want to tell all these to someone who are weaker than I am, they will say something like: “Aiyo! Good enough lo! If I have your achievement, I’ll be so damn happy already.” What else can I do? Leaving myself alone here? Keeping all my problems in my heart all time? I’m feeling worse now. I really need some motivation. I’m de-motivated by all sorts of things in my surrounding. I surrendered.
I don’t know what can I do now…………life is so miserable……it seems……
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
它 ---- 即 是 ……
它曾 经 让 我 认 为 它 是 在 为 我 生 命 中 一 匹 白 色 的 大 布 块添 上 鲜 艳 的 色 彩 。它 让 我 发 现 生 活 并 非 无 聊。每 当 我 望 着 有 了 色 彩 的 布 块 ，感 觉 非 常 兴 奋 ；感 觉 非 常 满 足 ；感 觉 非 常 甜 蜜 。它 在 我 生 活 逗 留 了 一 段 日 子 ，给 了 我 很 大 的 满 足 感 。但 这 段 日 子 并 不 长 久 。它 的 离开 ，让 我 痛 恨 在 心 。布 块 上 本 来 鲜 艳 的 色 彩 突 然已 变 成 了 一 片 灰 尘 ，不 再 能 欣 赏 。心 尤 如 透 明 的 水 晶 球 ，突 然 变 成 了 无 直的 石 头 。开 朗 的 我 已 变 成 了 一 个 无 表 情 的 人 ，不 再 是 那 位 到 处 派 开 心 果 的 我 ；不 笑 即 不 哭 …… 它 突 然 间 变 成 了 我 生 活 中 的 包 袱 ，很 重 很 重 的 包 袱 。任 想 把 它 放 下 ，但 实 际 上 却 不 允 许 。它 已 在 我 心 中 刻 上 了 乌 点 ，想 消 除 也 消 除 不 到 。不 时 让 我 想 起 曾 经 拥 有 的 它 ，心 很 痛 ，很 酸 ，泪 堆 满 眼 眶 ，但 却 无 法 流 下 ，感 觉 更 来 得 辛 苦 ，更 悲 伤 。以 为 这 包 袱 过 了 一 下 就 会 自 然 消 失 ，但 却 已 硬 刻 在 我 心 头 中 ………但愿 未 来遇 到 另 个 它 ，能 把 我 这 包 袱 卸 下 ………
Recently, I’ve been listening to this song gotten from sis’s colleague. I find the song is very nice and meaningful. Hope people have heard it before and also have the same idea as I am. The following is its lyrics. Get the song and enjoy! =p
歌曲:大哥
演唱:卫兰
编辑: www.mp3goto.com
如果 兄妹相称太多
醒不起喜欢我
快研究和我这异性拍拖
讹称 知己的真太多
当女共男未变爱侣
不吻过自然没结果
没有好感怎会相亲相爱大哥只是掩饰
能做对爱侣堕落成朋友 谁心息
我要爱情不需要登对不需得你允许
兄妹真有趣 不需要分居
忘掉辈份再追
我要爱情摧毁世交也不失一个创举
相恋的证据 假使要争取
唯有约定和大哥喝醉
曾经双手执一杆枪
想逼供你一趟
我和你无爱
谁没有智商
如果恋爱必须创伤
想你亦明白到我俩需开心都也受够伤
没有好感怎会相亲相爱大哥只是掩饰
能做对爱侣堕落成朋友 谁心息
我要爱情不需要登对不需得你允许
兄妹真有趣 不需要分居
忘掉辈份再追
我要爱情摧毁世交也不失一个创举
相恋的证据 假使要争取
唯有约定和大哥喝醉
我要爱情不需要登对不需得你允许
兄妹真有趣 不需要分居
忘掉辈份再追
我要爱情摧毁世交也不失一个创举
相恋的证据 假使要争取
唯有约定和大哥喝醉
歌曲:大哥
演唱:卫兰
编辑: www.mp3goto.com
如果 兄妹相称太多
醒不起喜欢我
快研究和我这异性拍拖
讹称 知己的真太多
当女共男未变爱侣
不吻过自然没结果
没有好感怎会相亲相爱大哥只是掩饰
能做对爱侣堕落成朋友 谁心息
我要爱情不需要登对不需得你允许
兄妹真有趣 不需要分居
忘掉辈份再追
我要爱情摧毁世交也不失一个创举
相恋的证据 假使要争取
唯有约定和大哥喝醉
曾经双手执一杆枪
想逼供你一趟
我和你无爱
谁没有智商
如果恋爱必须创伤
想你亦明白到我俩需开心都也受够伤
没有好感怎会相亲相爱大哥只是掩饰
能做对爱侣堕落成朋友 谁心息
我要爱情不需要登对不需得你允许
兄妹真有趣 不需要分居
忘掉辈份再追
我要爱情摧毁世交也不失一个创举
相恋的证据 假使要争取
唯有约定和大哥喝醉
我要爱情不需要登对不需得你允许
兄妹真有趣 不需要分居
忘掉辈份再追
我要爱情摧毁世交也不失一个创举
相恋的证据 假使要争取
唯有约定和大哥喝醉
HUUUUMMAAAANNNNN!!!!!!!!!!
Hey HUMAN! I’ve been away for quite a long time because of exams. Here, today, I would like to share about the days I experienced during exam period. Here you go!
September 2, 2007
The eve of trial exam. I wasn’t prepared for any of the subjects yet. I’m having Malay paper tomorrow. Only the synopsis of the short stories read. Nothing is prepared. I know what had happen to me. I tried not to be nervous. I tried not to get influence by any thoughts of worries. Yes. I’m cheerful the whole day today. I believe in myself. If I’m happy while doing exams, I’ll not do badly even if I’m not prepared. Yes. Just be happy and not to be panic. =p
September 3, 2007
I woke up quite early this morning. I’m starting to feel nervous. I can’t sleep well. I woke up before the alarm could wake me up. I’m worried. I’m not sure what’s wrong. I’m feeling grumpy too. I knew I’ll screw my papers up for today with such mood. Why am I so grumpy? What had affected my mood? I reached school at the normal time. I tried to find a place to sit to chill myself down. I could feel that I’m having rapid pulse rate again. This wasn’t a good symptom for me. I had my exam in the hall. Sitting at the sixth row from the front, third from the left row. Not too good. My first paper – Bahasa Melayu Kertas I started at 7.50 am. I had a slight nervous breakdown. I knew this would happen. I can’t hold my pen properly. I can’t write. I was so panicked. Damn! I’m going to screw this paper up. My aim to get an ‘A’ for this paper is gone! Why could this happen? Both of my legs were cramp too. Everything is gone, I thought. I tried to calm myself down. No way this gonna screw my paper. Finally, I started to get my pen to write only when the clock stroke at 8.30 am. Time is out soon. Almost 45 minutes wasted. Okay. Thankful enough, I could write after I had started the essay. Yes. I could write. I could write as long as the essays I wrote in tuition. But, I had not enough time to finish my first essay. I’m so disappointed with myself today. I wish, and I hope, the questions, which I answered for paper II could help me to get a higher mark for this subject. =.=
September 4, 2007
Today’s exam was quite relaxing. This was because it was – English! Haha. Everything went through quite smoothly. I even had time to walk out the hall for toilet during English paper II. The questions weren’t difficult unless you are very weak in English. Anyway, stop thinking about English until the end of trials. I’m having Sejarah paper I for tomorrow! Ahhhhh! *gasp =.=
September 5, 2007
Today, I had Sejarah and EST exams. EST was like usual, not very difficult and paper II surely with at least one mistake in the questions. Without fail, this problem happens every time we have EST exam. Talking about Sejarah, the only chances are to fail or pass with 40 marks. Nothing much I could say. I didn’t even know what did the questions want. I was guessing the answers all the way. What to do? This is what will happen when you have a poor memory and didn’t want to put effort in your studies. *snob = O
September 6, 2007
I loved today’s exam! It’s so relaxing and it kept me hyper for the whole day. Before recess, all the ‘pure science’ students were so free because we don’t need to take Accounts for this trial. Though it is good that we don’t need to take the exam, but I actually wish to have a try on the real exam. We only had Add Maths for today’s exam. The time when we were free, I spent my time teaching Yin and also Keng Hwa. Haha. It’s true that when you are teaching someone, you are learning too. Good. Very good. When it’s time for the exam, wow! I can do all the questions in just an hour time. For the first time I finished my exam so quickly. I love myself for this strength. Haha. I did the questions twice over all. I really-really hope that I didn’t make any “invisible” mistake in the answers. I wish to get a full marks for this subject. *I wonder how far can it be true? This never happens in my upper form life. Anyway, happy-go-lucky! =D
September 7, 2007
Argg. Moral today. So “moral”. Aiks! I don’t really know what did the questions want. Worst of all was there was a terrible burning smell at my place. Oh my gawt! I suffered through 2 hours. It was actually the smell of the wall fan. It wasn’t working although the switch was on. The appliances inside was burning I guess. I knew it as I had such experience at home but when I looked around, I didn’t see anybody seem to be suffering from what I’m suffering. I thought was my problem but thank god Pn Doreen smell it too at the end of the exam when she come to my place. Haiz. If she comes earlier then I wouldn’t need to suffer for so long! =.= man!
September 8, 2007
One week of exam is over. Counting from next Monday, there’s only one and a half more week to go. Yes, is not very long. For the first week, I had subjects, which are not very favorable. Those core subjects are not in my strength. Next week onwards, I’ll have my favorite science subjects. I wouldn’t know how will I do this time but at least I like them. Although I didn’t really make an effort to study for this trial, but I hope I can still remember what I’ve learnt all this while. Yes. Today and tomorrow. I shall plan my time to study all the three science subjects. I believe in myself for these subjects. Yes. I know I can. Lolx. XD
September 10, 2007
After two days of studies on Biology over the weekend, I had Mathematics today. It is because I took mathematics for granted, and of coarse today I’d faced a little bit of problems while answering the questions. Though I could answer all the questions in the end, but I took quite a long time to finish one question. I cracked my head to recall what I’d learnt long time ago. What lucky was, I’ve “born-talent” in mathematics and I’d got the way to answer the question. Haha. If this was history, I think if I was given 100 years, I’ll not be able to think my way out. =D
September 11, 2007
Oh! Seventh day of exam. Not a very good day for me actually. Today I had Biology and Chinese. Biology, hmmm, how can I say about it? It was quite a tough question for me because I did last minute study. Damn it but at least this was better than history. I could just write everything I learnt in real life in biology. Although I did left some questions empty but aiks..nothing I can do now but to start studying right after trials for SPM. Chinese was quite okay for me. All the questions were favorable. I did an essay on the feeling towards the last day of school life. Of coarse I can do it right? I have been thinking of it since don’t know when. Haha. Right, today’s target is to finish revising my chemistry for tomorrow.=p
September 12, 2007
Chem. today. Good thing was I received message from ah wen about the questions coming out for today. I did a bit of reading last night. Quote this: “ Last minute info doesn’t help that much!” Although I have studied, I have forgotten some of the important points. Anyway, I have strong basic in chemistry so I’m not so worried. Chinese paper II today was quite hard. Hmmm. I took more than half an hour to read one of the passages. It was so difficult to understand. I was happy when I was doing the 名 句 questions. For the first time I actually have confident that these questions’ marks will not be burnt off blindly. Haha. I got them correct! Yay! So happy! =D kayz, now study physics for tomorrow!
September 13, 2007
OMG! Today was a bad exam day for me! I had terrible runny nose since early in the morning. Man! It was so distracting! I have to waste my time to fold my tissue and put it near my nose, occasionally have to lie down a while for the “mucus” to flow back in instead of flowing out. Oh dear! Such a terrible day for me. Oh yes! Thanks Cheong Hoe, Pn Doreen, and Keng Hwa for your tissues. I’d used so many of your tissues. Luckily was physics today. My last minute brushed up last night wasn’t very bad at least still can answer most of the questions but was very tiring. I slept late last night and woke up early this morning, and so I was sleepy too when I was doing my exam. Ah! Terrible me! o.o
September 14, 2007
A day full with question marks in the brain. A day full with all different kinds of opinions from everyone. But these didn’t affect me that much. I’d expected these matters would arise very soon – leakage of exam questions and found out by teachers. Many people were so worried that we are not going to sit for the jps paper anymore for today. Thank god that I always make a spare tyre for my own. It was paper 3. It was not very difficult to study paper 3 anyway. I speed read all the experiments for physics and chemistry last night. Though this didn’t mean I can remember all, I at least got the concepts of all the experiments in my brain. What important is, you must be calm. Nothing else. Yes. This point of view must be taken for every subject. =p alright. Stay calm and focus!!!! Sejarah is up next! Three more days of trials. Not very long to survive provided you keep your cool.
September 15, 2007
I lost my focus. No! This can’t be happening! Sejarah is on Monday but nothing is in my head to get ready for those essay questions. Tips I got suddenly had become useless because we are not going to take JPS paper for this sejarah paper II. My mind is blank now. I don’t know which chapter to spot to study. I’m lack of time and I can’t study chapter by chapter at this time. But which chapter to focus in? I’m feeling so depressed after I marked my paper I I took the other day. I got only 22 questions correct. The chance for me to pass with a 50 mark is so low now. I really blur now. I want somebody to chat with me. But who? Everybody now should either be studying or doing questions. Help!!! =(
September 17, 2007
Today is not my day. What a day for me when it is not my day? Everything will turn out to be a disaster. No way this could happen but I mean it! In the first half of the morning, it was Sejarah paper II. It wasn’t a good start for a day like this. Monday blues spoil my mood. Questions I spotted actually came out and I’d revised them over the weekend. I just don’t understand myself. I will never remember the facts in the history textbook. Even if I memorized them, I will end up staring at the question paper losing all my memory. I’m not that kind of person who does memorizing. I can’t memorize something to remember it but I can remember something for a very long time if I understand it. I just don’t understand why. Why?? The Sejarah paper ruined my day. I’ve lost my mood to do any of the exams. Thank god was chemistry after that but it was quite difficult for me to read through the questions and scan my brain for the answers. I know my problem. My mood spoils everything. That’s why I always tell everybody and myself that it is important to do your exam with a true and happy smile. Tomorrow, all of us have to re-sit our chemistry paper III. All because of someone got caught for cheating the exam questions over the Internet. Damn! I have to read the experiments again. No!!!!!!! oooooo
September 18, 2007
Oh wow! Almost the last day of trials! Today was the second last day of trials. We had Add Maths paper II and the re-sit of chemistry paper III today. Oh dear! Talking about add maths, my dream of getting a full marks is gone!!!!!!!!! I didn’t prepare for a JPS paper today! Ah!!!!!!!! I feel so sad that I can’t do quite a few questions. I burned off those marks just like that!! =..( sad….. chemistry, today was quite okay. It’s not hard and I could do. I just hope that teacher doesn’t mark it strictly to kill my marks. Yes! Tomorrow is the last day of trials. Hope they don’t last minute give us another surprise re-sit paper or I will die!!!!!! Yippee..=p
September 19, 2007
Oh yes! Oh yes! Trial is OVER! But the bad thing is it’s the starting of the life of hell! It’s time to get things started. Not the time to relax yet. Alright! Let’s talk about today. Teacher changed our timetable for biology paper without telling us! But thank god I’ve read paper III questions yesterday! I’m prepared for paper III actually but I felt angry for not informing us about the change of timing. Many people got trapped for this change. Yes! I felt happy! Although was a kind of cheating, I still made an effort to study it okay! J-tube experiment was a difficult experiment. It took a lot of time for me to study and understand it.=p haha.. okay! The last day of trials indicates nothing in me. I don’t feel relax or any excited. Instead, I felt a little burden. But never mind. I’m sure I can get through it. No problem! All the best! =D
The eve of trial exam. I wasn’t prepared for any of the subjects yet. I’m having Malay paper tomorrow. Only the synopsis of the short stories read. Nothing is prepared. I know what had happen to me. I tried not to be nervous. I tried not to get influence by any thoughts of worries. Yes. I’m cheerful the whole day today. I believe in myself. If I’m happy while doing exams, I’ll not do badly even if I’m not prepared. Yes. Just be happy and not to be panic. =p
September 3, 2007
I woke up quite early this morning. I’m starting to feel nervous. I can’t sleep well. I woke up before the alarm could wake me up. I’m worried. I’m not sure what’s wrong. I’m feeling grumpy too. I knew I’ll screw my papers up for today with such mood. Why am I so grumpy? What had affected my mood? I reached school at the normal time. I tried to find a place to sit to chill myself down. I could feel that I’m having rapid pulse rate again. This wasn’t a good symptom for me. I had my exam in the hall. Sitting at the sixth row from the front, third from the left row. Not too good. My first paper – Bahasa Melayu Kertas I started at 7.50 am. I had a slight nervous breakdown. I knew this would happen. I can’t hold my pen properly. I can’t write. I was so panicked. Damn! I’m going to screw this paper up. My aim to get an ‘A’ for this paper is gone! Why could this happen? Both of my legs were cramp too. Everything is gone, I thought. I tried to calm myself down. No way this gonna screw my paper. Finally, I started to get my pen to write only when the clock stroke at 8.30 am. Time is out soon. Almost 45 minutes wasted. Okay. Thankful enough, I could write after I had started the essay. Yes. I could write. I could write as long as the essays I wrote in tuition. But, I had not enough time to finish my first essay. I’m so disappointed with myself today. I wish, and I hope, the questions, which I answered for paper II could help me to get a higher mark for this subject. =.=
September 4, 2007
Today’s exam was quite relaxing. This was because it was – English! Haha. Everything went through quite smoothly. I even had time to walk out the hall for toilet during English paper II. The questions weren’t difficult unless you are very weak in English. Anyway, stop thinking about English until the end of trials. I’m having Sejarah paper I for tomorrow! Ahhhhh! *gasp =.=
September 5, 2007
Today, I had Sejarah and EST exams. EST was like usual, not very difficult and paper II surely with at least one mistake in the questions. Without fail, this problem happens every time we have EST exam. Talking about Sejarah, the only chances are to fail or pass with 40 marks. Nothing much I could say. I didn’t even know what did the questions want. I was guessing the answers all the way. What to do? This is what will happen when you have a poor memory and didn’t want to put effort in your studies. *snob = O
September 6, 2007
I loved today’s exam! It’s so relaxing and it kept me hyper for the whole day. Before recess, all the ‘pure science’ students were so free because we don’t need to take Accounts for this trial. Though it is good that we don’t need to take the exam, but I actually wish to have a try on the real exam. We only had Add Maths for today’s exam. The time when we were free, I spent my time teaching Yin and also Keng Hwa. Haha. It’s true that when you are teaching someone, you are learning too. Good. Very good. When it’s time for the exam, wow! I can do all the questions in just an hour time. For the first time I finished my exam so quickly. I love myself for this strength. Haha. I did the questions twice over all. I really-really hope that I didn’t make any “invisible” mistake in the answers. I wish to get a full marks for this subject. *I wonder how far can it be true? This never happens in my upper form life. Anyway, happy-go-lucky! =D
September 7, 2007
Argg. Moral today. So “moral”. Aiks! I don’t really know what did the questions want. Worst of all was there was a terrible burning smell at my place. Oh my gawt! I suffered through 2 hours. It was actually the smell of the wall fan. It wasn’t working although the switch was on. The appliances inside was burning I guess. I knew it as I had such experience at home but when I looked around, I didn’t see anybody seem to be suffering from what I’m suffering. I thought was my problem but thank god Pn Doreen smell it too at the end of the exam when she come to my place. Haiz. If she comes earlier then I wouldn’t need to suffer for so long! =.= man!
September 8, 2007
One week of exam is over. Counting from next Monday, there’s only one and a half more week to go. Yes, is not very long. For the first week, I had subjects, which are not very favorable. Those core subjects are not in my strength. Next week onwards, I’ll have my favorite science subjects. I wouldn’t know how will I do this time but at least I like them. Although I didn’t really make an effort to study for this trial, but I hope I can still remember what I’ve learnt all this while. Yes. Today and tomorrow. I shall plan my time to study all the three science subjects. I believe in myself for these subjects. Yes. I know I can. Lolx. XD
September 10, 2007
After two days of studies on Biology over the weekend, I had Mathematics today. It is because I took mathematics for granted, and of coarse today I’d faced a little bit of problems while answering the questions. Though I could answer all the questions in the end, but I took quite a long time to finish one question. I cracked my head to recall what I’d learnt long time ago. What lucky was, I’ve “born-talent” in mathematics and I’d got the way to answer the question. Haha. If this was history, I think if I was given 100 years, I’ll not be able to think my way out. =D
September 11, 2007
Oh! Seventh day of exam. Not a very good day for me actually. Today I had Biology and Chinese. Biology, hmmm, how can I say about it? It was quite a tough question for me because I did last minute study. Damn it but at least this was better than history. I could just write everything I learnt in real life in biology. Although I did left some questions empty but aiks..nothing I can do now but to start studying right after trials for SPM. Chinese was quite okay for me. All the questions were favorable. I did an essay on the feeling towards the last day of school life. Of coarse I can do it right? I have been thinking of it since don’t know when. Haha. Right, today’s target is to finish revising my chemistry for tomorrow.=p
September 12, 2007
Chem. today. Good thing was I received message from ah wen about the questions coming out for today. I did a bit of reading last night. Quote this: “ Last minute info doesn’t help that much!” Although I have studied, I have forgotten some of the important points. Anyway, I have strong basic in chemistry so I’m not so worried. Chinese paper II today was quite hard. Hmmm. I took more than half an hour to read one of the passages. It was so difficult to understand. I was happy when I was doing the 名 句 questions. For the first time I actually have confident that these questions’ marks will not be burnt off blindly. Haha. I got them correct! Yay! So happy! =D kayz, now study physics for tomorrow!
September 13, 2007
OMG! Today was a bad exam day for me! I had terrible runny nose since early in the morning. Man! It was so distracting! I have to waste my time to fold my tissue and put it near my nose, occasionally have to lie down a while for the “mucus” to flow back in instead of flowing out. Oh dear! Such a terrible day for me. Oh yes! Thanks Cheong Hoe, Pn Doreen, and Keng Hwa for your tissues. I’d used so many of your tissues. Luckily was physics today. My last minute brushed up last night wasn’t very bad at least still can answer most of the questions but was very tiring. I slept late last night and woke up early this morning, and so I was sleepy too when I was doing my exam. Ah! Terrible me! o.o
September 14, 2007
A day full with question marks in the brain. A day full with all different kinds of opinions from everyone. But these didn’t affect me that much. I’d expected these matters would arise very soon – leakage of exam questions and found out by teachers. Many people were so worried that we are not going to sit for the jps paper anymore for today. Thank god that I always make a spare tyre for my own. It was paper 3. It was not very difficult to study paper 3 anyway. I speed read all the experiments for physics and chemistry last night. Though this didn’t mean I can remember all, I at least got the concepts of all the experiments in my brain. What important is, you must be calm. Nothing else. Yes. This point of view must be taken for every subject. =p alright. Stay calm and focus!!!! Sejarah is up next! Three more days of trials. Not very long to survive provided you keep your cool.
September 15, 2007
I lost my focus. No! This can’t be happening! Sejarah is on Monday but nothing is in my head to get ready for those essay questions. Tips I got suddenly had become useless because we are not going to take JPS paper for this sejarah paper II. My mind is blank now. I don’t know which chapter to spot to study. I’m lack of time and I can’t study chapter by chapter at this time. But which chapter to focus in? I’m feeling so depressed after I marked my paper I I took the other day. I got only 22 questions correct. The chance for me to pass with a 50 mark is so low now. I really blur now. I want somebody to chat with me. But who? Everybody now should either be studying or doing questions. Help!!! =(
September 17, 2007
Today is not my day. What a day for me when it is not my day? Everything will turn out to be a disaster. No way this could happen but I mean it! In the first half of the morning, it was Sejarah paper II. It wasn’t a good start for a day like this. Monday blues spoil my mood. Questions I spotted actually came out and I’d revised them over the weekend. I just don’t understand myself. I will never remember the facts in the history textbook. Even if I memorized them, I will end up staring at the question paper losing all my memory. I’m not that kind of person who does memorizing. I can’t memorize something to remember it but I can remember something for a very long time if I understand it. I just don’t understand why. Why?? The Sejarah paper ruined my day. I’ve lost my mood to do any of the exams. Thank god was chemistry after that but it was quite difficult for me to read through the questions and scan my brain for the answers. I know my problem. My mood spoils everything. That’s why I always tell everybody and myself that it is important to do your exam with a true and happy smile. Tomorrow, all of us have to re-sit our chemistry paper III. All because of someone got caught for cheating the exam questions over the Internet. Damn! I have to read the experiments again. No!!!!!!! oooooo
September 18, 2007
Oh wow! Almost the last day of trials! Today was the second last day of trials. We had Add Maths paper II and the re-sit of chemistry paper III today. Oh dear! Talking about add maths, my dream of getting a full marks is gone!!!!!!!!! I didn’t prepare for a JPS paper today! Ah!!!!!!!! I feel so sad that I can’t do quite a few questions. I burned off those marks just like that!! =..( sad….. chemistry, today was quite okay. It’s not hard and I could do. I just hope that teacher doesn’t mark it strictly to kill my marks. Yes! Tomorrow is the last day of trials. Hope they don’t last minute give us another surprise re-sit paper or I will die!!!!!! Yippee..=p
September 19, 2007
Oh yes! Oh yes! Trial is OVER! But the bad thing is it’s the starting of the life of hell! It’s time to get things started. Not the time to relax yet. Alright! Let’s talk about today. Teacher changed our timetable for biology paper without telling us! But thank god I’ve read paper III questions yesterday! I’m prepared for paper III actually but I felt angry for not informing us about the change of timing. Many people got trapped for this change. Yes! I felt happy! Although was a kind of cheating, I still made an effort to study it okay! J-tube experiment was a difficult experiment. It took a lot of time for me to study and understand it.=p haha.. okay! The last day of trials indicates nothing in me. I don’t feel relax or any excited. Instead, I felt a little burden. But never mind. I’m sure I can get through it. No problem! All the best! =D